m#

the kira pose la yor :D
erm, the 'avatar' toy thingie digging mua nose :D hahaha







mmm

truth is ...

i.miss.you

im sorry for hurting you.

im sorry to make u sad being my bf.

im sorry i couldn't spend time with you .

im sorry to give u hopes tht i want u back.

im just... confused with my feelings and doesn't want to feel the pain i felt before .

im sorry for .... everything.

sorry.

x

ai #

what do i ai ?

i ... ai ..

#1 : V (:

#2 : hair

#3 : anime la . ahaha

tadashi harada's masterpiece

&

Blair: Are you okay?



Chuck: I am now.



(;

x

weird#

UH.

a tint of light among the dark.

not me la ofcourse

talking bout another stuff :D

x

attachment#

if there's no attachment there's no pain if there's no pain then why suffer ? (:

attachment could bring you temporary happiness .

but it also brings you pain,sadness.

-I sang all song of my heart for you

May I hold you to last time
I can't breathe if you aren't with me

(:

X

hopes#

slowly , slowly .. disappear away like what flowers do . (:

one by one.

..

bye. x

wishes#

what's wrong with me?
all these sudden emotionless freaks me out.

i no longer desire to cry for it .

i no longer desire to have a bf to say iloveyou everyday.

i only smile when i see anime , i only laugh when i watch anime , i only cry when i watch Sad anime ._.

Hahaha. Jk la

straight to the point

i get what i wish for .

..

but it's not a good thing . x

desire#

desire#

last time i used to want something so desprately til i could even cry everynight for it.

seeing peoeple playing it was the most heartbreaking moment ever. i envy people. i thought that i was the only one that's suffering . i thought that i could live without it . i thought ... i thought... i was meant to be with it only.. nothing else.

but then i was wrong once again , now i got parent's permission to learn it... but i no longer feel the love i felt last time .

last time , whenever i listen to its playing , i feel love , i feel kindness .. warmness.. everything that defines love (;

when im sad , i could even cry like a babi bcuz its playing is so emotional.

i cry . i cry & cry again for it .

i hope , i wish to play it with my bare hand . i thought it was the only thing that can bring me happiness.

but now my wish came true . but i dont know what to do anymore.

what's wrong with me ?
everything i desire cametrue but i just dont feel the way i used to felt before.

i want to gain back those feeling of love ... feeling of sadness...

maybe im just like that ..

maybe i will only like a thing for temporary

maybe it's like a replacing for the actual thing?

maybe.....idono ;(

roar

rawr.

iwanna.bite.u.to.death :D

buh XD

buh , went to times square yesterday ;D

mom bought me a new tee & a skull scarf which cost a bomb. thankxz mum <3

anyway, the tee is like so friggin' tight...i mean it's like body-hugging type of tee not the bigbig oversized type .lol

but... me likey it <3

hmph

im confused with my own feelings.

..

sigh.

okay wait , im not sad-ing bout it ..

im just... well,im not sure actually .lol

CC convo#

Cherlyn says:

my dp

nice bo?

<<<<<<<

(which is me(carmencheangla))

Carm ; says:

so cute 1

whos tht?

Cherlyn says:

lol

Carm ; says:

hahahaha

Cherlyn says:

Cute meh?

everyone say she very perasan 1

Carm ; says:

ya meh?

Cherlyn says:

yala

Carm ; says:

but she looks so cute to me wor

Cherlyn says:

no lor

i think my dog is Cuter

Carm ; says:

lol

omgomg

she so cute

Cherlyn says:

swt

Carm ; says:

introduce to me

XD

Cherlyn says:

lol

no

cannot

she got bi d

Carm ; says:

omg really?

who?

hot 1 ar?

Cherlyn says:

no lor

i heard very short 1

somore is gangster

Carm ; says:

WA.

so hot ar?

the name leh?

Cherlyn says:

the name is (censored)

lol

Carm ; says:

wa

LOL

pro

la

Cherlyn says:

so creative la his name

Carm ; says:

..

yea

very nice la

weee.

Cherlyn says:

lol

weee somore

u so weird la

Carm ; says:

u evil only mah

his name so sexy

hahaha

Cherlyn says:

LOL

ur head

Carm ; says:

u evil only mah

his name so sexy

hahaha

Cherlyn says:

LOL

ur head

where got sexy?

my name lagi sexy

omg, i feel so perasan now

Carm ; says:

hahaha

cherlyn chong pau hwa

so sexy

BUT

Cherlyn says:

no but

Carm ; says:

(censored) lagi sexy

Cherlyn says:

no

lol

nope

mine lagi sexy

hmmm#

u ask me to forgive you ... and i did.. and i Do hopes so that i won't regret it . <3

oh well, pauhwa call me a stupid when i told her i do so ..

damn , dilemma weih x)

sighhhhhhhh.. tomorrow how?

D:

wtf?#

my dad spy my facebooking ._.

EVERY SINGLE THING . wtf?

no comment la weih.

can't believe that parents don't even trust his own daughter. oh well, sigh. u know la

._.

wtf la.

friggin' pissed offf now

tehehe#

yes , after few second of consideration . i feel like blogging . tehehehe :D

let's see ... where to start ? hm.

after exam , everyone were screaming their arse off :D woots , freedom still needa go to school lahs -.-

we went to Ou , wanted to watch jennifer's body BUT (U.N.D.E.R.A.G.E) :( :( :( SAD SAD SAD

we watched "poker king" .. seriously .. i'm starting to play texas poker dy.

went to kitchens. wanted to buy the tubetop or whatever you call it .. but didnt la. why? me no ideaa.

tried on this lollipop shirt which me likey But i.hate.the.sleeve.la

Lolx .

soundless voice#

will blog soon .

when i've the mood to.

:D nolah, actually i've the mood to blog 1 , but then im kinda' busy mah. so pardon lo XD

ahahahhaha

okay lahs .